New Beginnings

I had to resurrect about four different email accounts from years past to finally get here, to this little quadrant where I can divulge my feelings to the world. I've been doing a lot of reading in the past year. I've found some new things and some old ones too. I'd write in a journal, but I guess I feel the need to have an audience, or at least an imaginary one. I hope to start posting on a regular basis. I have all these thoughts just floating around in my head, and I'd like to see them take form. I want to see the conversation play itself out.

Lately, I've been giving a whole lot of thought to the kind of person I want to be, and what I want to do with my time in this world. I think a lot about this inner need, calling, desire.. I don't know just something that yearns to come forth. I do not know what that is. I think a lot about what I would do if I weren't beholden to any societal, biological, or even time constraints. What could I do in my development as a person, as a spiritual being, if I had nothing else to focus on but pure expression of the self? I wonder if I could still discover that, find my calling, the purpose that God had intended for me even through all of these constraints.

I know that I am certain that breaking free of the hive and truly finding yourself and your purpose will always be met with resistance and opposition. No one ever got brownie points for stepping outside of the world taken for granted. Do I have the strength to become the person I'm meant to be?

Let's Try This Again

I've had this thing forever. I used to be really active and then like everything else, I got bored and laid waste to this page. I've been trying to find a venue for self expression other than belly dance, and I guess this qualifies as that. Now, to play catch, I graduated from school--- I know what do I do with myself now that I don't have my studies to define me-- and I decided that I would go out into the real world and gain some experience. It's coming along, I've gained experience. Truth is I've been in limbo ever since I left school.